Is it spring? Really :-O

It is a slow coming spring this year, but I can not help but get excited and look forward to the sun !! I know it is coming soon, and we have had a little glimpse here and there.
The buds , daffodils, and the fact that I have a litter of Beagle puppies coming in a week all contribute to my optimism.
I am getting a baby yellow sided conure, and am thinking how cute he/she will be.
New life, New hope, New energy.
I have lost 12 lbs. and am still going.
I am happy, and blessed <3 I have great kids !!

Empty Nesting

I wondered what this was about? With 7 kids I never thought I would be dealing with this.
But now with number 5 graduating this June, and numbers 6 and 7 right behind her, I am now starting to feel the empty feeling.
What is next for me after they are on their way........I am wondering who I am if not a mother any more.
I have spent the better part of my life caring for others. My husband, kids, grandkids, Elderly parents, foster children, ect. and onward. I began at 9 as the eldest child of my family caring for my siblings while my parents worked. I had my first child at 17 years old.
I can hardly remember not being a mother.

So, to re-define myself now is really hard. I have time to myself and do not know what to do with it. I do not have millions to go places, so I just have limited options, and I do not even know what that is.
A Hobby you say......... I have those, but they do not even fill me up.
I believe that fostering might help, but I am not sure what is the answer for me?

With God's help, some patience for life, I hope the door will open that I need to walk through next.

The shortest, longest month of the year !!

I think that with it being February and snowing and blowing , that I need to focus on the next part.
Spring !!
I know it is coming, just as I know that tomorrow is another day .
Patience , hope and a little Wine, might get me through. How can one month seem like a whole season all by itself !! I am blessed with my kids, and grandkids, and I have everything I really need.
Except Spring !!

Where has time gone now !! I am sad !!

Here it is November already. School has started, work, chores, and the Rainy season has begun with full vengance. I am dreading the winter, and will be glad when Christmas is over because then we will be almost to spring. Christmas just means work and worry for me.

I think that a long winters nap is fitting, but I would never get away with it. I will not get to be at rest for a long time. Too much is resting on my shoulders. I am so tired of having all the responsibility and all the decisions coming from me. Trying to make all the ends meet, and there are so many of them. I wish I had someone to talk to, who really knew what was in my mind. I do not think there is anyone on the earth who really gives a crap what I feel and think. Only what I can do and give to everyone. It has been along time since I really felt like smiling.

Oh well, cant change it, must just deal with it.
One day ......................................maybe........................ a reason to smile again............
I need to take a deep breath and look out the window........

Summer Breezer's

Summer.........A time we wait for and look forward too. School is done, kids are more relaxed.
There are times where there is almost too much time to think. A feeling of being separate and individual. I can march to my own drummer for a while.
Then in a blink.........it is over and back to the world, school , and requirements of society to be considered socially acceptable. Why oh why must we be forced to meet others expectations of us.

I am thinking to much, time is going too fast for me.

I am liking my drums right now !!

Windy

Windy days are cleansing, I stand outside and let it blow away my cares. I breathe in and I breathe out. And I try not to think about anything at all.......

Feel the sensations.............Cool .......Refreshing !

The awesome power of nature. If we stop and take the time to look and feel it. She can guide us to sensibility, and directions that we never thought of . We can relax and enjoy the view.

Life gets so busy that sometimes we forget.......