Where has time gone now !! I am sad !!

Here it is November already. School has started, work, chores, and the Rainy season has begun with full vengance. I am dreading the winter, and will be glad when Christmas is over because then we will be almost to spring. Christmas just means work and worry for me.

I think that a long winters nap is fitting, but I would never get away with it. I will not get to be at rest for a long time. Too much is resting on my shoulders. I am so tired of having all the responsibility and all the decisions coming from me. Trying to make all the ends meet, and there are so many of them. I wish I had someone to talk to, who really knew what was in my mind. I do not think there is anyone on the earth who really gives a crap what I feel and think. Only what I can do and give to everyone. It has been along time since I really felt like smiling.

Oh well, cant change it, must just deal with it.
One day ......................................maybe........................ a reason to smile again............
I need to take a deep breath and look out the window........